Sunday, September 21, 2008

A Letter to Mom

Thank you for being there for me when I've needed you.
Thank you for the hugs each time I've cried.
Thank you for telling me you love me each time we talk.
Thank you in believing me in, even when I don't believe in myself.
Thank you for making scrapple just for me to take home when I've visited you.
Thank you for the honor of allowing my children to sleep in the same crib you slept in.
Thank you for the stories you've told me about your life.
Thank you for bailing me out of more than one bad situation.
Thank you for the many laughs, and the many tears.
Thank you for the wisdom you've shared.
Thank you for giving me a smile every time I think of you.
Thank you most of all for being my Mom, I'm truly blessed!

As a child I worshipped you, often saying that when I grow up if I become half the woman that you are then I'll be amazing!

Throughout my childhood, and to this day, I see the beauty in you. You're so poised! Very little seems to rattle you even after living 72 years of life! Keeping your composure during the most traumatic of life experiences is an attribute few have, yet many desire!

I remember as a child you used to have me walk around with a book atop my head. I thought it was only to improve my posture, but as I've aged, I realize it meant so much more! You wanted me to always hold my head high with pride, never faltering to that which condemned me. This by far is the lesson I've had the hardest time learning. I've caved more often than not to things, and people, who I seem to have given power over me! Did they deserve such power? No, not really, yet I gave it to them nonetheless. It wasn't until recently that I truly understood your teachings in this regard. Perhaps now that I see more clearly, true change in the right direction will take place.

Your shell.. something to be envied. Sarah (my daughter), somewhat curious as to how she'll age looked at the picture of you sitting on top of Daddy's Austin Healey Sprite the other day. She proceeded to tell me that you've not changed a bit in the last 50 years! Having spoken to you today I learned that Hayden (my nephew), as young as he is, recognized you in that picture as well! That little "pie faced" girl that kids made fun of not only won many beauty pageants, but to this day still looks so beautiful!

Your strength.. How do you do it Mom? It's been almost 20 years since we lost Daddy yet you, all by yourself, have been a shining star as the matriarch of our family. You've been there to support each of us when needed, and not just financially, but with your wisdom, heart, and soul. You've given guidance in hopes that we'll listen, yet you've still been there to pick us up when we've failed yet again. You leaned on Dad when he was alive, but all along you never really needed anyone to lean on! You've proven that you had everything within yourself all along!

When my son was born, you saved our lives. You were the one who alerted the hospital staff that there was something wrong with me. Beyond that, you were the one who raised me to not bow down to defeat! He was so sick but yet I never gave up believing that he'd survive! And that he did! I fought with every bit of strength that I had to give that tiny baby the will to fight when he was too weak to fight his battle alone! I've carried that drive with me and I'm utilizing it in my current situation. I will win this battle, because you've given me the tools to do so!

I'm still not there Mom, I'm still not half the woman that you are, but I'm working on it! Each day I learn something new and each day is a fresh beginning.

Thank you isn't strong enough to relay my appreciation of everything, but it will have to do!

I love you Mom!

11 comments:

My name is Billy! said...

Angie,

Except for certain parts about children etc, this sounds just like something I would have wrote for my granny.

I applaud you for this writing.

Well done.

Country Comes To Town said...

You Mom sounds like a special lady Angie!

Jinxie said...

I read this the other day and tried to comment. I lost internet service so I'm back. Angie, its a great letter to your mom. I love love the picture too!!!

Hugs,
Martha

Angie ^i^ said...

Billy,
It sounds like your Granny is someone I would have adored! Ya know, you could still write her, she hears you!!!
*hugs*

Angie ^i^ said...

Jim,
Mom's amazing! I was so truly blessed to have both my parents.. I had a Leave it to Beaver childhood and wouldn't trade it for anything!!!

Angie ^i^ said...

Martha,
You can left click on the picture and see it full sized! That pic, and one I'll post in a week or so are my two favorite pictures of my parents!
Sometimes we forget to tell those we love just how much they mean to us ~ I'm trying to make sure they know before it's too late!
^i^

OweMe1Cannoli said...

Very nice, Angie ... by the way, they look just like two movie stars!
No wonder you're very proud!!

Oshutterup said...

Angie, I loved your letter - your mom sounds like a wonderful lady.
I know she must be very proud of her daughter, too...

Country Comes To Town said...

I'm just stopping by to see if you've posted anything new. I hope you're having a good weekend.

Angie ^i^ said...

Oweme1 ~ Until I tell folks that the pic is my parents, most think it's a clip from a movie!! I love that!! hehe

Ruthe ~ I am so very proud of her.. I'm not sure if the feeling is mutual though.

Angie ^i^ said...

Hey Jim ~ I've not written anything else yet. Sometimes the words flow, sometimes they're a bit of a struggle. Since what I write is laced with emotion and personal experiences, more often than not something has to inspire me to write on any particular day. There will be something new by week end ~ while all y'all are off to SouthTube2 having a blast!! I hope you're having a great week thus far!